Ok, well maybe sin is a bit strong. Maybe more like I've made a bad choice, or naughty in the words of a 2 year old. I should probably be given a timeout, although it would probably be more of a reward than a punishment. But I digress. I bought something at the grocery store last night that I shouldn't have. Most wouldn't think it is a sin, but for me it is a weakness. I should start at the beginning. A few weeks ago I had a flat tire on my car. I took it to the Big O where we bought them. I had Cecilia with me so we took a field trip to the bakery next door while we waited for the tires to be fixed. While I was there I saw some cookies that reminded me of some cookies my mom used to buy when I was little, I remember them so well because I used to sneak them from the pantry. I asked what they were called and she said Mexican Wedding cookies. That sounded like what my mom used to get, I know it had wedding in the title. So I had to get some and see, 4 to be exact. Which if you don't know about these type of cookies they are just two bites each. I figured I'd have one or two today and give one or two to Shaun or have them another day. I bit into the first one and Whoosh, right back to that pink bag of yummy bite sized cookies from my childhood. It was so yummy! It wasn't exactly the same, but close enough. Of course Cecilia made me share with her and I surprised myself by being reluctant let her have any. Now if you know me at all, you know I don't have a sweet tooth. I know that is so hard for most of you to understand. But sugar doesn't like me and I frequently end up with a headache in the end. That whole negative reinforcement works well on me (yes this is a scientific term and if you don't know what it means- look it up, I guarantee you will be using it soon). So I rarely make dessert and only if we have company and if I eat sweets I always have a small portion. In fact, Shaun doesn't mind sharing with me because when I say I only want 2 bites, I mean I only want 2 bites, and I will only take 2 bites. So it surprised no one more than me when I looked down and the cookies were all gone and I was wishing for more. But I restrained myself and we went on our way.
Over the next few days I found myself craving those cookies! Again a first, I never crave sugar (chips- yes but cookies?!). Finally a week later I caved and went back. This time I bought more so they would last me. I was good though and only had 1 or 2 a day. But too soon they were gone.
One day when I was talking to my mom I told her that I found a bakery that makes mexican wedding cookies and told her how I've previously looked in the grocery store for those yummy cookies in the pink bag she used to get and can't find them. She was surprised and said she hasn't bought them in years but thought they still sold them.
Last weekend Cecilia and I went to visit my parents and my mom told me she had a surprise for me. Guess what she pulls out?!
Yep you got it, Danish Wedding Cookies! I know they aren't mexican wedding cookies, but I've done some research and found the names are pretty much interchangeable (along with a couple others). I was so excited to break open that box. I guess over the years they went from bag to box, but it is the same old bright pink package! First bite, Ahh now that is the cookie I remember! I had a hard time stopping eating them. In fact the next day I "overdosed" and had a headache the rest of the day. I think that helped me to tell my mom that I was leaving them there, they are too dangerous for me. It will be my special treat when visit them. But my resolve didn't last long... For guess what I found in my grocery store last night. I know I know I really shouldn't have, but these cookies are a weakness for me! I don't know what to do, I've never been tempted by sugar like this before. Well at least not since I was a kid and had them the first go round. I've got to teach myself discipline with this box of cookies. Not too many and not too frequently. I can do it, I can be disciplined. And if I am maybe it won't be a sin after all.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
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